A New Perception
Today, my shoe broke and I fell to my knees *hard* on the sidewalk of Lafayette. I was, of course, embarrassed and my knee hurt like crazy. I'm totally fine, please don't worry but at that point I knew something in my life was going to change today. By falling down, literally, I think I knocked something loose.
I breathed in deeply and when I blew out my mouth a thousand pounds was lifted off of me. The world opened up and I was able to see past just me. What was this invisible weight that was lifted off of me? Why did my soul feel lighter?
I realized that my expectations of myself, life, career, and love was in a narrow minded room in my head. I've struggled so much to do the right thing, always. There was a problem with that.
Not that's it's not fabu here in my noggin. Really! But what I did figure out is, I know that life is shorter than we ever expect. My perception needs to change.
Mortgages, children, family, I know how stressful life is. But it's a beautiful struggle and I have been telling myself that I can't do things. I can't travel, live somewhere else, wait on having kids. I can do all of that.
I've got goals! I want to live in New Orleans, I want to live somewhere on West Coast. I want to help people, not just myself.
So when I called my husband crying as hard as one can on the phone and still make sense, I was completely thrown off that he wanted to do the exact same thing and then I took that breath.
The same breath made me realize I need to open my eyes. Observe that I love my friends, family, and me. I love me. I do. So as I sit here typing, I promise to love myself until death does me part from my body.
Dear Reader, don't paint yourself in a corner or do things just because you are "supposed" to. Make yourself happy. If you want something, go for it. When you love yourself everything falls into place.
I have big plans. I'm now allowing myself to imagine what I can add to my world to make it a truly amazing life. So when I do eventually kick it, I can say I gave it my all. No regrets. All in the pursuit of happiness.
Anyone have an eye opening experience lately? I'd love to hear it!