A New Perception
Today, my shoe broke and I fell to my knees *hard* on the sidewalk of Lafayette. I was, of course, embarrassed and my knee hurt like crazy. I'm totally fine, please don't worry but at that point I knew something in my life was going to change today. By falling down, literally, I think I knocked something loose.
I breathed in deeply and when I blew out my mouth a thousand pounds was lifted off of me. The world opened up and I was able to see past just me. What was this invisible weight that was lifted off of me? Why did my soul feel lighter?
I realized that my expectations of myself, life, career, and love was in a narrow minded room in my head. I've struggled so much to do the right thing, always. There was a problem with that.
I'm isolated.
Not that's it's not fabu here in my noggin. Really! But what I did figure out is, I know that life is shorter than we ever expect. My perception needs to change.
Mortgages, children, family, I know how stressful life is. But it's a beautiful struggle and I have been telling myself that I can't do things. I can't travel, live somewhere else, wait on having kids. I can do all of that.
I've got goals! I want to live in New Orleans, I want to live somewhere on West Coast. I want to help people, not just myself.
So when I called my husband crying as hard as one can on the phone and still make sense, I was completely thrown off that he wanted to do the exact same thing and then I took that breath.
The same breath made me realize I need to open my eyes. Observe that I love my friends, family, and me. I love me. I do. So as I sit here typing, I promise to love myself until death does me part from my body.
Dear Reader, don't paint yourself in a corner or do things just because you are "supposed" to. Make yourself happy. If you want something, go for it. When you love yourself everything falls into place.
I have big plans. I'm now allowing myself to imagine what I can add to my world to make it a truly amazing life. So when I do eventually kick it, I can say I gave it my all. No regrets. All in the pursuit of happiness.
Anyone have an eye opening experience lately? I'd love to hear it!
Posted by Hillary Seidl at 8/29/2011 8:49 AM 
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Wow! Epiphany moment! That must have been after our stressful planning session! My niece moved to New Orleans at 19 with nothing and stayed there for while. She loved it! Why don't we just follow our bliss and do what our hearts tell us to do? I don't know? But I do know that I'm so happy for you figuring it out now, instead of wasting years waiting to do what you want to! Go For IT!
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It was after our session! I fell and knocked something loose! =) Thanks, Jessie! =0)
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Those moments are so rare and so special, it's great that you have your hubby and your friends to support you in your awakening. I've had many of those experiences over the past few years, one of the most memorable was after my husband left, I had no friends and was 1000 miles from my family, I realized I was in control of my own life. I could let his hurt rule me or I could take back the reins. So I started saying yes to everything, I went on adventures and tried new things. By the time our divorce was final I had invited over 75 people to my divorce party. For the first time in my life I felt like I was living "awake". Enjoy the bliss - you deserve it.
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I know! It was a total, out of left field, moment. "Awake" is the perfect way to describe it. You're so strong! =) Good for you, I'm totally impressed. Thanks for coming by.
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Hillary, what a beautiful awakening for you! You are such a beautiful spirit,and I too see big things for you in your future! I am happy for you, and proud to call you my friend. It is such and awesome feeling, when things like that happen to us. And thankfully we are open enough to the universe!
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Hi Hillary, What a great article! It came at the right time and spoke to me. You are helping more people than you know by sharing things like that from the heart. And THANKS for your welcome to me at CRW loop. Rita
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Aww! Thank you so much Rita. I'm glad you liked it. I hope to meet you soon. =)
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